The Nobody

feeling out of place I split up to find myself in another light

The Symbols

Nightingale, Bluebird, Wind-Up Bird, Beech Tree, House, City, Moon, Night

Might Mean

Invisibility: need for privacy, working in the shadow, being away from the spotlight, anonymity, modesty (real or possibly the false kind), losing oneself, shame

Emptiness: absence, living in one's head, being distracted or not in one's body, virtual reality, impersonality, feeling unimportant or not being seen as a person, loneliness, mother conflict

Idealization: imagination, fantasy, escaping reality, perfectionism

For Example

Movie Clips & Videos:

A new view of the moon

Vincent Van Gogh – At Eternity's Gate

Dream, in the midst of my life – Max Richter

Who am I in the eyes of most people? A nobody – Loving Vincent,
The Story of a Man Who Doesn't Exist (Mr. Nobody),
The Story of Going to the Moon – First Man,
Ethan Hawke on the Experience of Losing Oneself,
The Problem of Shame

"Indras before you. I have seen them come and go, come and go... think of galaxies beyond galaxies in infinite space, each a lotus, with a Brahma sitting on it, opening his eyes, closing his eyes. And Indras? There may be wise men in your court who would volunteer to count the drops of water in the oceans of the world or the grains of sand on the beaches, but no one would count those Brahmin, let alone those Indras."

– Joseph Campbell, The Power of Myth (The Humbling of Indra, pp. 76-79)

Podcasts:
A Tattoo for The Living (Modern Love),
The Night Girl Finds A Day Boy (Modern Love),
Being a Nobody in Paris (This American Life, hear clip below)

Writings:
The Power of Anonymous, The Shadow Muse,
The Blue Songbird: Finding Your Voice and Coming Home to Yourself

Shadow (Psychology), Idealization and Devaluation, Deindividuation,
Privacy, Private Sphere, Anonymity, Nothing, Humility, Darkness, The Void

Literature:
The Wind-Up Bird Chronicle (the novel that inspired this card)

(Toru, while thinking in the dark well) "I saw myself as the wind-up bird, flying through the summer sky, lighting on the branch of a huge tree somewhere, winding the world's spring." "Have you ever had that feeling – that you'd like to go to a whole different place and become a whole different self?"

Bluebird (Bukowski)

"Man is no longer identified with his organism and his environment, he is no longer one with the world he perceives. The organism is 'self,' but the entire environment is 'not-self.' He takes up residence on this side of the skin boundary, and stares out and across to the alien world around him. 'I, a stranger, alone, afraid, in a world I never made.'

Unity Consciousness becomes individual consciousness, our Supreme Identity becomes a personal identity, the Self becomes a self. So begins the battle of me vs. my world."

– Ken Wilber, No Boundary

Songs:
Nobody – Mitski,
Pour un Instant (For a Moment) – Harmonium,
Pulaski at Night – Andrew Bird