The Nobody

feeling out of place I split up to find myself in another light

The Symbols

Nightingale, Bluebird, Wind-Up Bird, Beech Tree, House, City, Moon, Night

Might Mean

Invisibility: anonymity, modesty, humility, working in the shadow, away from the spotlight, shyness, low self-esteem, feeling unimportant or not being seen as a person, shame, inferiority, low self-esteem, keeping oneself small

Emptiness: absence, being distracted or not in one's body, virtual reality, living in one's head, loneliness, isolation, loss of soul, losing oneself

Introversion: personal life or unconscious, privacy, turned inward, subjective experience of the world, personal interests, small scale, insignificance

For Example

Movie Clips & Videos:

A new view of the moon

Vincent Van Gogh – At Eternity's Gate

en route to the moon – Gattaca

Who am I in the eyes of most people? A nobody – Loving Vincent,
The Story of a Man Who Doesn't Exist (Mr. Nobody),
The Story of Going to the Moon – First Man

Ethan Hawke on the Experience of Losing Oneself,
David Bowie on the Theme of Isolation,
Jung and the Persona System,
How To Know Yourself

"Accommodation to parental needs often (but not always) leads to the 'as-if personality.' This person develops in such a way that he reveals only what is expected of him and fuses so completely with what he reveals that one could scarcely guess how much more there is to him behind his false self. He cannot develop and differentiate his true self, because he is unable to live it.

The legacy of the parents is yet another generation condemned to hide from the true self while operation unconsciously under the influence of repressed memories. Unless the heir casts off his 'inheritance' by becoming fully conscious of his true past, and thus his true nature, loneliness in the parental home will necessarily be followed by an adulthood lived in emotional isolation."

– Alice Miller, The Drama of The Gifted Child: The Search For The True Self

Podcasts:
A Tattoo for The Living (Modern Love),
The Night Girl Finds A Day Boy (Modern Love),
Being a Nobody in Paris (This American Life, hear clip below)

Writings:
An Artist's Journey Or The Chance To Begin Again,
Closing Stories Of The Nightingale and Mockingbird,
The Blue Songbird: Finding Your Voice and Coming Home to Yourself,
The Drama of The Gifted Child: The Search For The True Self,
How To Get Over ‘Never Good Enough’, Imposter Syndrome,
Some People Feel So Utterly Alone It’s As If They Don’t Exist

Shadow (Psychology), Idealization and Devaluation, Deindividuation,
Privacy, Private Sphere, Anonymity, Nothing, Humility, Darkness, The Void,
Imposter Syndrome, Tall Poppy Syndrome, Ego Reduction, True Self

"The legend of Narcissus actually tells us the tragedy of the loss of the self. His reflection deceives him since it shows only his perfect, wonderful face and not his inner world, his pain, his history. His back view, for instance, and his shadow remain hidden from him, they do not belong to and are cut off from his beloved reflection. His passion for his false self makes impossible not only love for others but also, despite all appearances, love for the one person who is fully entrusted to his care: himself."

– Alice Miller, The Drama of The Gifted Child: The Search For The True Self

Literature:
The Wind-Up Bird Chronicle (the novel that inspired this card)

(Toru, while thinking in the dark well) "I saw myself as the wind-up bird, flying through the summer sky, lighting on the branch of a huge tree somewhere, winding the world's spring." "Have you ever had that feeling – that you'd like to go to a whole different place and become a whole different self?"

Bluebird (Bukowski)

Songs:
Nobody – Mitski,
Pour un Instant (For a Moment), Le Corridor – Harmonium,
Pulaski at Night – Andrew Bird